Leaving Home



After that little blog of mine \”Lost in Transition\”, many of you have compelled me to re-think over the choice of songs I am into. Its a wildly driven paradox ; when I am with my folks I never have  had played/appreciated these so-called-lounge genre\’. And probably thats the reason you guys couldnt comply with the sudden but subtle change. lol… A theory again ! But thanks for all your comments.

I am right now plugged into (its not best as Khamaj but it certainly appeals me)
Song: Leaving Home
Album: Kandisa
Band:– Indian Oceans –


Its a hymn and has been performed by the Indian Ocean (Black Friday fame). Kandisa was a great album and had more good music especially with their \”Kandisa\” and \”Ma Reva\”. There is something about Indian Ocean’s music that touches a chord somewhere within. Its a mix of rock and classical, drums and sitar, tabla and guitar, or Sanskrit (?assumed) all take equal preference. But I must admit that Kandisa is among those few albums that doesnt seem to be forced or pretentious. There is this.. great amount of soul enriching quality to it.. complete off-track to the present music scenario in India.

During the college days me and my friends played \”Kandisa\” almost 50 times a day at hostel room (inspired by Annual Function\’s Fashion show  ), but that wasn\’t strange – we had only few cassettes left with us (all other were lost/donated/destroyed.. ). Call it a compulsion but whatever that was, it was fun to listen to same song no-matter-what-time of day and night and bug your friends by singing (?yelling) them loud.. ! Fun were those times, but probably I never noticed this song ;  infact I never had to. I could figure out the meanings of lyrics Ma Reva and Kandisa so needless to say, this \”leaving home\” went overshadowed. But now when I re-think this one is far better song then the other tracks of Kandisa.

For those who dont (*want to*) understand Hindi, they might find this one easier and soothing. Its just a well coordinated fusion of strings and percussions (my fav). Surprizingly, after a little bit of research on this song I found this song description –


\”The concept dwells on the Pastoral Myth revisited. There is no golden past, yet we seek it ultimately. We want to leave home, and then, one day, we wish to return. But we can never go back to the same. Because, home has changed, and in many ways, so have we.\”

So true and wonderful, isnt it ?

Well, this would probably be my last blog on songs.. I need to get back on controversies ASAP ! (My reputation: My \”friend\” (?name protected) forwarded me a nice song and asked me to write a blog on it !! ha ha.. as if I earn my bread from songs )

Percussion lovers – Digg it ! (Recommend you to use your \’better quality\’ headphones, set your WMP to – \”techno\” and turn ON your SRS WOW and adjust the slider for crisp sharp tabla beats )

Download: Leaving Home (Nirav Edit) (click mp3)
[Note: I had edited the mp3 files and cut some vocal parts of song to sound better )

Shah / Nirav ™ 
© Copyrights 2006 Nirav Shah.  Some rights Reserved !

Lost in Transition


This time its nothing to do with India/politics nor has anything spiced up pinch about movies. Its just a Damn Sexy song!! It all started during this long weekend while I had been driving more than 700 miles and this one came as my best companion – a song !!

I never have had a feeling before so strange, but this one had stumped me to core. It is something ridiculously wierd \’coz  I really dont know how to express as its completely insane. Its like, you get this complete song haunting you anytime of the day (and night too to be precise) and this wont go untill you plug yourself to it for like god-zillions times all in a loop  and enjoy repeating its everlasting effect. And finally, you end up craving to hear it more and more. At a point I wanted this song to play simultaneously all around me in like.. 5-10 different music players all at same time !  DAMN this feeling !


Its Fuzon Khamaj
Mora Saiyan moh se bole na 

Sawan Beeton jaye teharwa
Man Mera Khabraye
Aiso Gaye Pardes Piya tum  (2)
Chain hume nahi aye (2)
Mora saiyan Mo se bole na (2)
Mai laakh Jatan kar haaari ,
Laakh jatan kar haar rahiiii
Mora sayian Mo se bole na …..

It has this amazing guitar riffs and bends that plays so smoothly along with rythmic chord progression added  with a little brass \’matka\’ kind of beats giving it a kind of gloomy folk tone. And ofcourse the classical sufi touch in the voice with raaga – khamaj (?assumed)  makes the whole song …soo.. soo PERFECT !!  Its lovely to listen to this song in the evening, with darkening skies,  lil rain showers and a cup of hot coffee in ur hand or may be it would be great during winter snows or may be fall ! Damnn , I think its lovely for all time of the seasons ! I could just play on and on and on, probably because although it is so monotonous  – you just wouldn’t feel that its becoming repetitive.

I remember when I first heard this song , it was as if the sole solace for my worries back then ! You know  those times when you just don’t mind being stupid and letting the song take over you, if it takes somethings off your head!

I recommend to listen to it while you are on a long drive, or on a lonely night while you are waiting for things to lit up fresh, or when you have an anger led helplessness feel about being unable to do something. But the best is to close your eyes and let the song take you over COMPLETELY !!

Sufi lovers – just Listen to it¦ I think you’ll know  what I am upto.
Download: (official RM) http://www.fuzontheband.com/songs/11.rm

Shah / Nirav ™
© Copyrights 2006 Nirav Shah.  Some rights Reserved !

Rang De Basanti : Generation Awakens




Ok, now after watching Rang De Basanti (RDB) twice in the first week of its release, I think I would go for buying the DVD or may be the Director\’s Cut edition of this movie. If I had a choice between Swades and RDB – I think RDB rocks !!

Swades to me was a hard hitting film too, all that I had thought of, all that I had wished for all that I had imagined was right there on the celluloid. Probably Swades was within everyone and Ashutosh gave it a nice format to show it on the celluloid to the mass. But some things have changed from Swades to RDB !

Rang De Basanti

 Message: \”koi bhi desh perfect nahi hota hai use perfect banana padta hai\”

(No country is perfect, it has to be made perfect\”)

It has a strong message to convey which was applicable to everyone ! It doesn’t matter what country you are from nor your age that matters. What matters is how much is within you and what can you come up with. It is a story that you have lived with. Its a story of a group of friends with typically different characteristics which you happen to see in your own group. I think people who have criticized the movie they are the typical masala mongers who always go for a movie to see some song sequences in beautiful locations, some drama and some comedy. If you fall in the above category – please don’t go for RDB !!!!

I had people complaining that RDB was very unreal ! They started pointing out flaws such as – A documentary film by Sue can not be a documentary, Defense minister can\’t go for morning walk with just one body guard, first half slow… second half wierd,…etc etc… OOhh c\’mon….. is this what you saw in this movie ? The point is, these people never get the message and they never will. You can not afford to come out of a movie like BLACK and say – \”This is movie was stupid.. how can a blind and deaf girl go to a university with normal students ?\” If one does so, then I think it would be pointless to argue with such people. Its the whole movie and style that come along as the part and parcel of the movie that you got to sit n enjoy but the only thing you need to take home is the thought, the message conveyed, the moral, the idea, the philosophy.

I had just one thing for them to say – u dont deserve watching good movies. And probably these are the same people who would have appreciated movies with ultimate unreal love stories.

What I liked ?

Cinematograpy !!

This is one part of the movie you really got to watch for. Its amazing !! Each and every frame captured and edited is has soo much to say and its so … soo.. technically supported ! The music by A.R. Rehman essentially fuses with the fresh nd crips cinematography ! Each and every scene, along with the music and the camera settings had the real impact of the message. Let it be the scene where they want to show the insanity of Sharman Joshi and Aamir on the Rock drinking Beer or The speeding bike race with car or the lathi charge scene or cremation .. I would rate cinematography + music as a complete winner !


Aamir – needless to say he performed his best again. The scene where Aamir cries at Sue\’s apartment is amazing. It really shows the caliber of the genius.

Sharman Joshi – One of my favorite characters. Live, fresh, enthu yet sensitive ! The hariyani lingo suits him the best. His drunk scene near Jama Masjid where he sings \”lamba mera yaar, uski chotti galli;  talli galli talli galli ….talli galli..\” was so funny !

Siddharth – I have seen him peppy and trendy in \”Jhankar Beats\” and now serious and mature with cigarette puffing.. great !! Watch the scene where he is at the crematory and his eyes half filled with tears !

Atul Kulkarni – He is a veteran actor from the live performing theatre.. He really justifies his role. The sequence where he goes to Alsam and he says \”….s…sorry\”… That was the time when I was expecting him to say some long speech and some sentimental dialogues.. but it made so much sense and impact when he shows his deep emotions with his breaking down attitude to say …. \”Sorry\”

Soha Ali Khan – The next Sharmila Tagore ?? May be or may be not ! But I was moved by her acting ability which came out completely unexpected. The scene where she shows her mixed reactions of fear, expectation, prayer, tension, shock and tears all together when she watches the news channel about the MIG 21 crashing is simply – SUPERB

All other actors did their part … anupan kher, om puri, Narayan Rane (defense minister) all did justify their roles and performances.

Finally, the end part of the movie with the footage of news reporters interviewing the college students (Gen X) and the rage and out burst shown by them was no way forgettable. I remember one guy saying \”They have ignited it, and we would not let it fuss out like this.\” and yeahh the message in the movie is not gonna fuse out…. !

Let me ask – Does it really need a bomb to make a deaf listen to you?

I guess, watch it to know it !

Shah / Nirav ™

© Copyrights 2006 Nirav Shah.  Some rights Reserved !

Black Friday: The Banned Movie




It was Friday night, around 2 am. I was completely exasperated with the assignments and school’s work load. Before going to bed, I thought – let me check out the print of “Black Friday”. This thought actually meant that I should be checking the quality of the print on TV and turn off the dumb thing(TV) to sleep. But who can control? I bet once you start this movie, there’s no way you would ever shut it off till it ends. Let me make one thing clear, I generally watch all kinds of movies, but these kind of movies fall in a typical genre, say it conspiracy or fact – files or reality, for me it rank on the top of every genre.  


The movie was suppose to hit the Indian screens probably few months back, but was soon banned! Well, the reasons seem to be justified. The movie is based on true story about Friday – the March 12, 1993 – Mumbai bomb blasts; a series of bomb blasts that rocked apart all the human emotions and almost had brought the restless city – Mumbai , on halt. The present scenario is, there are cases filed and the final judicial verdict would be out soon. But the release of the movie would have surely biased the public opinions against the alleged criminals. The decision to ban the movie made perfect sense. Read about it in details <>  

The movie is “based on true story” – directed by Anurag Kashyap (yeah, the same director whose previous film “Paanch” was banned too!) and written by Z. Hussain (writer of the book Black Friday, which is an extensive research and documentation of the Bombay bomb blast case)  


One word… SHOCKING !  

Watch the 6 trailers: 

 I almost felt as if it wasn’t a movie but a kind of reality videos. The characters were so real. Kay Kay Menon (Sarkar fame) and Aditya Shrivastava (CID fame) made it look so real! Anurag Kashyap really needs pat on his back for such a tremendous effort. I understand what courage it takes to quote “Based on true story” in the title and he proved it. After movies like Satya, Kaun, Shool and Paanch he seems to be fully aware and loaded with his crisp and sharp presentation techniques. At no point of time the movie looses the grip. There has been no commercial value added to the movie giving 100% justification to the seriousness of the case discussed.

Black Friday is presented in form of 5 Chapters. These chapters maintain a decent chronology of the events moving back and forth with time trying to explain each and every part of the Bombay bomb blast scheduling, its roots, the purpose, investigation, revealing conspiracy, collecting evidence, and present status.  


 All the characters names used in the movie are real (no alias used… Very brave !)

  • The bomb blasts were the outcome of the reaction of notorious Muslims to the Babari masjid and Mumbai riots in 1992
  • Tiger Memon and Dawood’s intrigue relationship was shown along with their connection with Pakistan’s and Dubai’s govt.
  • Pakistan’s wicked reactions have been shown (ripped off)
  • Original tapes and pictures and news flashes were used at times.
  • The dialogues have lots of abusive, making it sound real (no beeps)
  • Some dialogues have directly been attacking the religious sentiments (hint ! )

The background score is given by Indian Oceans (Kandisa fame). Beware: the music is so touchy at times that it will keep haunting in your mind reminding of the hardcore reality.

\”Arey ruk ja re bandeh,

k kudarat has padegi\”

\”An eye for an eye makes the world blind\” – Gandhi

Watch the movie to believe me !


Shah / Nirav ™

© Copyrights 2005 Nirav Shah.  Some rights Reserved !

Maine Gandhi Ko Nahin Mara (2005)



\”Maine Gandhi Ko Nahin Maara”, is a must watch for those people who like to see experimental and different films which rely on more on content than hype or glamour. It is a very well directed and a very well acted film, which is surely not to be missed. At the box-office the film might fail to do good business, but then it would not be unexpected.  But such a different and daring subject has little appeal for the masses !! When I started watching movie, my concentration was all diverted on the amazing and marvellous performance by Anupam  Kher and Urmila.  On the first thought, my first reaction was – \”Is he really acting ?\” , it looked so natural !


The movie is about the Prof. (Anupam Kher) who is a gentle,  scholarly, brilliant man who shares a very warm relationship with his children. In the midst of their heartwarming interactions, we start noticing something going wrong..the Professor starts forgetting things..minor things in the beginning, getting on to bigger incidents like forgetting he is retired, forgetting his wife has been dead for two years…it soon becomes apparent that he isn’t just forgetful and that his condition cannot just be attributed to old age, and perhaps it is a serious disorder like Dementia.

Professor slowly starts losing touch with reality, with his behaviour getting more and more bizarre…….. and ultimately, his two children see him crouching under his bed, holding a whole bunch of paper clippings, declaring – ’’Maine Gandhiji ko nahin maara’’.  (This is one of THE best scene in the movie)


Anupam Kher gives the best performance of his lifetime, ever. Such a difficult role was not so easy for anyone to perform. Probably Amitabh or Nasiruddin Shah are the only ones I can think who can do a similar role but it would be unfair to make comparisions. 

He excels in the scenes in which he shows his guilt of killing a man as gentle as Gandhi. Especially he shines in the scene where he hides under the bed due to guilt of killing Gandhi and in the second half,in the courtroom scenes, too he is excellent. Anupam Kher deserves a pat on his back, not only for giving such a wonderful performance but also for producing a film of this kind. Anupam Kher is BRILLIANT as Professor Uttam Chaudharyto me this IS the finest acting performance of the yearThe actor doesn’t slip up even once and gives the most credible performance of a mental illness that I’ve ever seen..including Hollywood movies. 

Urmila Matondkar (daughter) is brilliant once again. She is truly an actress who believes in quality more than quantity. The quality of films she has been doing since last two to three years is excellent. Each new release of hers has the actress attempting different kind of role but with equal brilliance. Urmila, after Pinjar and Tehzeeb, hands in yet another wonderful, intense performance. Whether it is her anguish at her father’s deterioration, her frustration and anger at him when he ’’lets her down’’ in front of her prospective in-laws, or the betrayal she feels when her fiance marries some one else… she is absolutely on the money in terms of conveying her emotions 

Boman Irani as the sharp and clever lawyer is fantastic,once again. He has been proving his ability right from \”J dot Asthana\” of Munnabhai to \”Natubhai\” of Waqt 

Jahnu Barua is a director to watch out for. The director has managed to make a very different, original yet a very gripping film. From the very beginning of the film, when you are introduced to the retired professor and his family till the interval when the professor starts losing his memory and from there to the second half when the professor is humiliated and his daughter supports him, the film succeeds in holding the viewers interest. The first half is executed brilliantly and the second half has some really interesting and well acted moments. There is lots of drama in the second half,which will keep the viewers interest alive.

I am not sure, may be it would be a mere co-incidence but my blog has suddenly seem to have changed to Gandhi Blogs. Hope I find something more diverse than just Gandhi.

Btw, I forgot to mention, there is nothing in this movie about Gandhi or Nathuram. Its just a drama and purely original script (I guess) about a happy family and a old man suffering from serious mental illness.

Shah | Nirav

Gandhi or Gandhism ??



Yesterday, I got the video CD of the, so-called-hyped marathi stage show \”Me Nathuram Godse Boltoy\” (I, Nathuram Godse, am speaking). Nathuram, the alleged killer of The Father of The Nation (only India\’s, thankfully) is the key character of the complete 2 hr play. He narrates his own story and describes his thought process which lead him to take the decision to kill Gandhi !

I had heard a lot about this stage show, had even read about the story but never ever got a chance to see it (thanks to our biggest democracy for banning this one !). Well, we dont like to create \’controversies\’ and thats not it, we really dont like to see people appreciating the slighest efforts to show the other side of Gandhi\’s assassination ?  If I were to rate this play, I would have surely rated this 10/10. I dont have the slightest doubt about why this play was in soooo much demand it was really worth it.


The play is superb, the script is very well developed, characters have performed very effectively and above all, it looks as if the producer/director did his homework. I really appreciate their guts to put up a topic which was naturally going to storm the nation. Afterall, they had to show something so effective, that can it can pierce into the hearts of the viewers who have been used to read/listen to the monotonous \”gandhi is great\” literatures.


Play is basically very balanced. It was definitely one of the finest way of showing the Godse sentiments and expression one can ever think of ! The script was quite unbiased and it probably didn\’t show any Hindu-Muslim hatred in Godse\’s mind. Also there wasn\’t enought hatred shown for Gandhi too ! The Play starts with Nathuram Godse comparing the similarities of  his way of living with that of  Gandhi\’s, and these similarities between them which apparently were the same points for being different from Gandhi. There are some scenes where Godse describes his state of mind and his reactions to it.  He gives a clear impression on the viewer that \”i-am-not-a-maniac\” and his motive for killing Gandhi had a perfect and valid justification.


Gandhi was a person who had been a very powerful person, capable of influencing the masses. His strenght was within him and he was capable of developing that strenght in everyone. I have met people who are hardcore anti-gandhi who think that India could have achieved Independence quite before 1947 if there was no Gandhi. But I doubt it. I am not a big follower of Gandhi and his Gandhian ways but I really admire his HUGE efforts in bringing India closer during the time of crisis. He was a man with influence. Probably he could have been a great Saint, but as a Politician Gandhi had failed. The more he tried to peep into politics, India suffered.


1. Gandhi \”selecting\” Nehru and not Sardar Patel to lead the Independent India

2. Gandhi\’s decision to agree to India-Pakistan partition, which could have been easily avoided.

     India got freedom from Britishers, for which Hindu\’s Muslims had fought togther. Then why a seperate \”muslim nation\” ? Did Bhagat Singh fight for Free Punjab ? Did Bose fight for Free Bengal ? Then why the idea of partition ? If Gandhi was declared as \”father of nation\” after independence, then why is Jinnah considered \”father of nation\” in Pakistan after the partition ? And yeah, wasn\’t Gandhi a believer of democratic country ? Then why was he supporting the idea of Muslim country ??…. hmm.. well…… thats the reason why they say \”gandhi is great\”… u never know !! Well, enough of sarcasm.. lets move forward.

3. Giving 55,00,00,000 (55 crore) Rs. to the newly seperated Pakistan as an help.

     Gandhi went on hunger strike for making the parliament agreeing to this ! What ?? Hunger strike ?? Like threatening Indian govt for giving money to Pakistan ?? Yeah, isn\’t it surprizing ? Well, as a matter of fact, India wasn\’t rich enough to develop itself but generous enough to help the neighbouring country. Hmm.. thats interesting ! Wasn\’t that money suppose to go for the Jawans (soldiers) securing the northern borders? Wasnt that money needed to save ourself from the Chinese infiltration threats ? Yeah.. but thats not being Gandhi ! One has to be generous enough to give his other cheek if someone slaps on one ! And thats what he did..  Gandhi indeed was Great… ha ha ha

Nathuram thought, that if Gandhi keeps taking such wrong decisions after the independence, future generation will hate him for what wrong he did rather than loving him for what he did right ! And being the biggest followers of Gandhi, he would hate to see people cursing him in future… so…. HE stopped HIM !

And yes, there was no \”Hey Ram\”… it was just \”AAh\” … !!

Who knows the truth ??

If you haven\’t yet seen this play……………………………. Go for it !

Visit: http://nathuramgodse.com


Shah | Nirav